Today I am so grateful for true friendships. I just had coffee with my dear friend Becky - probably the one I am closest to out here in San Diego. I poured out my heart to her...everything going on in my life...my doubts...my fears...my dreams...my excitement. She listened earnestly and gave amazing comfort and support. She gave me real answers. She is a true friend who cares deeply and I can't say how wonderful it is to have her in my life. It's rare to find a friend with such a big heart and encouraging faith. Thank you Becks. You're one in a million.

i miss josh.

I know I have mentioned this in previous posts, but I feel as if my heart is planted in the midwest. The past four years in California have been amazing. This time has been instrumental in who I am today...personal discoveries, getting involved in the community, a fantastic job, wonderful people...

...but through all of that, I still find myself yearning to be in Ohio. I've thought for a while I would eventually move back...and each day that goes by that desire grows. True, I have even more reason to move back now. A piece of my heart lives in Ohio and I yearn to be near.

So here I am, wondering what to do. When to take a step towards Ohio. How to take a step. So many questions about leaving here and making my way there. Do I wait for 'the right time' or do I just go ahead and take as many steps as possible until it happens? And what if I move there and decide I miss it in California? Both places are like home and I anticipate that I will always miss one place, no matter where I end up.

Because there is no clear answer, I will continue to pray. Continue to take baby steps until I feel clear direction (hopefully I will feel clear direction at some point!). Any advice?